imabitch

currently searching for pictures
for my art assignment before i
shut this com of mine!
its an addiction;
seriously!

anyways!
today after school.
headed for town with
peiyeee and SISTA to
check out the guitars!

OMG! SUPER DUPER NICEEEE PLEASSEE! i love the black acoustic (electric)! found out my black acoustic will be ready in two to three weeeks time. SUPER LONG PLEASEEEE. argh! the acoustic guitar i wanted was there la, but it was in other colours like blue, red, brown and all! ALL EXCEPT FOR BLACK! arghhh! but they were quite nice too la BUT i still preferrr the BLACKKKK one! why?! simply cos black is my fav colour..

anyways! i left my number with peiyees friend! he'll call me once the black acoustic arrives. in the meantime, i still have time to decide whether i should take the electric one insteadd, cos it really is DAMMITT NICEEEEE too! :D oh welll! we'll see how it goes la.

and so,
we all stayed around until six plus.
playing all the guitars on amp all!
super fun i tell you (: hahahahahh!
played the bass with peiyee also!
AAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH! was all GOOOODD!

JUST CAN'T WAIT TO GET MINE LA! :D
alright off to do my art.
MWAHHHHHH!

posted by stacey @ Thursday, February 24, 2005 0 Comments

 




 



its been ages since my sisters and i last talked about so many stuffs, and shared so many secrets. talked to them last night, and man, they made me laugh like some mad retard i tell you :D thought about it, throughout these few years of my life, they were actually the CLOSEST to me! despite all the quarrels and fights, we had always learnt to forgive and forget! i just regret not being a good role model as well as a good sister to them but actually i wanna let them know that deep down inside, i actually do love them and appreciate them ALOT! (: thanks for being there for me throughout everything! love the both of you so much! better study hard yeh. *mwaaahhh!

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, February 22, 2005 0 Comments

song of the day;
story of the year - anthem of our dying day


had so many comments in school today please.
alot of them said i look malay, i looked like
some "minah!" others kept asking if i rebonded
my hair and cut my hair all!OMG! NO OKKKAY! I DO NOT LOOK LIKE A MALAY! I ALSO DID NOT CUT MY HAIR, OR REBOND IT OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT!


anyways!
mel! HELP! I NEED THE ALOE VERA GEL THINGY! my face is starting to peeeeel! ARGHHHHHH! HOW HOW HOWWW HOWWW HOWWWWW! OH NOOOOOO!

lets seeeee.
got my geog results back.
okay, i did VERY BADLY!
alllelllluiiiiiaaaa!
i've gotta start workin
man, really have to!

after school!
basketball competition against scgs
we lost! ): oh well.
sc was really goooood!
their layups and everything
else was just SUPERB i tell you.
its a no wonder they always
get first every year!

match was held at CCA branch.
at the same time, st nicks
was having some hockey match.
walked past all the sn girls
with audrey and maryanne all,
happily shouting for daphne.
realised that it was the b div!
gosh. so maluating i tell you.
then later, saw daphne! she was
watching the bball match!

went home with audrey after that!
alright! i'm off to mugggg! bye!

posted by stacey @ Monday, February 21, 2005 0 Comments

i'm so proud of myself!
did mel's blogskin for her.
its like so nice pleaseee!
hahahah! i hope you like it! :D

anyways!
cl backetball earlier on.
quite okay la, just that
bona was being such an
irritant! kept banging me
la! so annoying please!

after that played pool
with bona, justin, nick
and this other altar boy
(dunno his name! woops :|)
bona was winning all the way
until I WON HIM! :D
hahahahh!

walked from selaseh
back to hougang point
where bona got his
dinner all, before
i went home.

i finally got to tell you
the truth, but guess it no
longer matters anymore.
cause theres just noway i can
ever get it back. oh well.
i hope we'll act normally
and not start avoiding
each other alright. i'm
okay with it, seriously!
dont worry!



currently spinning;
she cries - rufio

lonely hearts
shattered dreams
there's nothing better in this place
nothing but memories in my mind

posted by stacey @ Sunday, February 20, 2005 0 Comments

TANNING!
was all good i tell you :D

just that;
i'd spent too much time
at sentosa that i forgot
to message my dear peiyee
to tell her what time
to meet me to get my
guitar! didnt get it in
the end ): cos she had
tuition. urgh!

most probably tmr if that girl
can make it! hopefully she can!
OH PLEASE GOD TELL ME SHE CAN
AND WILL MAKE IT! (: cos i really
and seriously need it by next week!


alright! today was good! :D
woke up in time for tanning.
left for harboufront and reached
harbourfront at 8.30 on the dot.
waited for mel they all for so long
until i finally gave up, and decided
to call them. found out that they were
still at TOA PAYOH INTERCHANGE waiting
for connie! beanie another one! she JUST
WOKE UP when i called them la.

so waited for quite sometime until
connie, mel and yanpeng FINALLY
arrived. walked to harbourfront,
and took the bus into sentosa!
waited for that mini blue bus to
silosa beach for so bloody long
that even when beanie arrived,
we were still there, waiting.

tanning at sunset bay; siloso beach.
from 10plus all the way until 4plus.
met alot of people there like the
9am choir, primary school's celeste
lee as well as.... RESEEEEE! :D

kim came to join us after her guitar
in school. beanie and connie left
around 1plus. yanpeng left with her
boyfriend around 3 plus. kim, mel and
i continued tanning.

after tanning, washing up and stuff.
the three of us went to plaza sing.
mel and i got kim a small birthday
cake cos her bday was like two days ago
or smth. then went to take neos and all
before waiting for a cab.

queue was SUPER long.
after waiting for so long,
we finally got to the front.
guess what! there were nomore
taxis coming in, why?!
cos the stupid roads
were blocked due to the
chingay parade! woops!
mel was like super
late for tuition.
GOOOODNESSS ME
PLEAAAASSSSEEE!
so decided to take
the mrt instead!

and so its been a super long day.
I'M PLEASED WITH MY TANNNNNNN! :D
and i'm super duper tired!
night!

posted by stacey @ Saturday, February 19, 2005 0 Comments

OMG! I TELL YOU I'M IN LOVE
WITH JUSTINS NEW GUITAR! ITS SO
FREAKKIN NICE! :D

anyway!
i'm gonna be meeting peiyee
tomorrow after tanning, to
finally get mine! MY
BLACK ACOUSTIC! (:
FINALLY I TELL YOU!
that girl is like
always so busy!


today!
went over to laselle SIA
some arts open house stuff.
tried finding for my cousin
who studies there, but she
was nowhere to be seen ):
had some performance also.
was good i felt, just that
mrs zailee kept rushing
for time. so annoying!

somehow, i feel like going
over to laselle after my
O's! but the fees, i tell
you.. they are way sky
high! GOOODDDNESSS ME!

k, anyways!
i should be heading for
the bed soon, cos i'll be
meeting mel and all at
harbourfront at 8.30 tmr
morning! hopefully, i'll
be get up on time! will be
tanninggg before..

GETTING MY NEW GUITAR!

YAY! :D


song of the day;
the ataris - saddest song

why do we always seem to
want what we can't have?
everyday i seem to be missin something;
YOU! i just miss having you around!
):

posted by stacey @ Friday, February 18, 2005 0 Comments

hey!
guess what! i'm in school right now.
mr tangg kinda brought us here to
do some survey thingy but it aint working
so he allowed us to do our own stuff!
SHHHHIOKKKKASSSS I TELL YOU :D

just went blogg surfing.
going around to tag and all.
justins blog song came out so
loud that mr tang stared at me.
woops! :|

posted by stacey @ Friday, February 18, 2005 0 Comments

the weathers been such a killer, seriously.
it so SUPER hot nowadays, that its just
impossible to live without the aircon,
and water. i get so dehydrated easily!
have been drinking lots of water i tell you!

anyway, my dear cheryltan! you better start
drinking more water, so that your nose wont
keep bleeding anymore k!


after school,
headed for the interchange
for lunch at long johns with
cheryltan, mel, connie and beanie.
i kinda got really thirsty after
everything, due to the really hot
weather, cheryltan nicely bought
me a milo freeze! sat there, talking
and stuff, before heading down to
kiddy palace. HAHAH!

walked around kiddy palace, all the toys reminded me of my younger days as a child
please! GOODDDNESSS ME! and i saw this really cute spongebob squarepants stufftoy that can talk, which costs $14.90! OMG! IT WAS SERIOUSLY CUTE! i so wanna get it! :D

later went to the swimming compartment.
all the small size swimming costumes, all the cute little floats and stuff! connie was going crazy over this float, which had this huge tree on the top. she is gonna buy it btw, so that on saturday while we're all tanning all, she'll be sitting on the float, with that tree like thing. GOODDDNESSSS ME! HAHAHAH! everybodys gonna be staring at her. mel, i and all shall just pretend not to know her, and continue with our tanning anyways! but of course, mel said that if we do see her having truckloads of fun on the float, we might join in! (: HAHAHHAH! omg, a bunch of retards we are.

anyway! i know connie is serious about
buying the float. she says she'll most
prob bring it to school tmr to show us.
HAHAHHAH!

talking about it;
i cannot wait for saturday!
TANNNNNNING TANNNNINGG! :D


my song of the day;
green day - boulevard of broken dreams

bring us back to where we were
when life was not this hard but now
looking back, it all just seems so far
so far away.

posted by stacey @ Thursday, February 17, 2005 0 Comments

during chinese lesson today!
i was like telling weng lao shi
that i do pay attention to her during
chinese lessons, and never really
made her angry for these three
years which she has been teaching
me chinese all and guess what!
she told the whole class to
start laughing and they did!
GOODDNESSS ME PLEASE!

she was like commenting on how
it was gonna snow tonight, and
that she will definitely strike
4D tonight. so guess what
she did next? she asked me for
a set of NUMBERS, as well as my
birthday date! HAHAHHA! SHE'S SUPER
FUNNY MAN I TELL YOU! :D

can't believe she's serious
about it! told me that if she really
DO strike tonights 4D, i must
go and see her first thing
tomorrow morning in school.
she's gonna meet me and
treat me to dinner! btw,
she lives SO near me so
that makes things easier.

hopefully, 2301 and the number i
blurted out comes out tonight.
can't wait to check it later!
it's gonna be just hilarious if
it really does come out i tell you!


anyways!
can't wait for saturday!
CANNOT WAIT! CANNOT WAIT AT ALL!
every saturday's most prob
gonna be my tanning day!
going to be tanning at sentosa
this saturday with mel and all!
so excited i tell you! :D

basically, i WANT the tann
in which i had in sec one to
two ALL BACK! it faded off
slowly k! how sad :|


currently listening to;
yellow card's ocean avenue CD.

falling into memories of you
and all the things we used to do.

posted by stacey @ Wednesday, February 16, 2005 0 Comments

HAPPY

VALENTINES

EVERYONE! :D




beanie, mavis and mel were
my valentines for the day!
hahah. all the dateless! ):
J8 with the three dateless after sch.
bought a STAR pendant for my PARTNER
for valentines! then coincidentally met her
at J8 too! so gave it to her (:
and.. SHE LIKES IT! YAYY! :D

had this nice green box filled
with saga seeds, and a folded black heart
on the top of the box. was meant for
someone, but decided not to give it
to her anyways cos i saw no point.
my dear cheryltan wanted it, so
decided to give it to her instead! haha.
she said she felt so loved just cos of
the number of saga seeds i gave her.
MADDDNESSSS I TELL YOU! hahah!

and so.
thanks for all the presents
i've gotten so far! (:
now, i have like 5 - 6 roses,
and i have absolutely no idea
what to do with them.
hahah.


anyways!
had two common tests today.
physics and bio.
quite alright i guess,
just that mr tang was
a lil pmsing today.

all the tests coming up.
maths is tomorrow!
gotta start mugging hard
for all the tests man!
cant afford to wait til the
last minute, cos that doesnt
work for me!

spent about an hour talking
to SISTA earlier on. then later,
was looking through my cd rack.
suddenly had an urge to listen to
michelle branch's hotel paper cd.
i used to love her, and i still do!
love playing her songs on the guitar,
although i suck real bad at it!
hahah :|

talking about guitar;
peiyee! friday!
confirmed ah?
dont pangseh me
again okkay! ha.
alright! tc all!
hoped yawl had a
great valentines!

BUT just before you leave;
PLEASE DONT FORGET TO TAG!
THANK YOU VERY MUCH :D


my song of the day;
good charlotte - my bloody valentine

i've missed my chance,
and chances are it wont
be coming back to me ):

posted by stacey @ Monday, February 14, 2005 0 Comments

anybody!
CHOCOMANIA TICKETS PLEASE?
its ten bucks; which means
you are entitled to exchange it for
ten dollars worth of chocolates
from any cocoa tree outlet!
justin agreed to buy one
from me; and so thats good!
any other kind soul out there?


anyways!
valentines day is tmr! (:
currently getting all my
presents ready. all the
last minute work please!
beanie's an exception!
she's gonna get hers on tues;
cos she is SPECIAL!
hahahh! jokes jokes!


just came back from
aunty phyllis's place.
her house is SUPER DUPER
BIG AND BEAUTIFUL! :D
we were all at the rooftop.
some, lying down and
watching the stars.
a few others, gambling!
i just love the stars;
they are so BEAUTIFUL!

my uncle came to fetch
me home, cos apparently
my dad was at home watching
soccer with my cousin.
just before i left,
bona gave me a super huge hug.

suddenly, i realised
how much i missed that fella!
all the late night talks
and calls we used to have
, how he used to take time off
to listen as well as to cheer
me up, and all the nonsense
that he would actually make up
in order to make me smile again.
the basketball games, the running,
the computer games, pool, gym.. ah!
just EVERYTHING! I JUST MISS HIM
SO DAMN MUCH MAN; seriously!
we have way ALOT of catching up
to do! hope to talk to him
sometime soon yeh. SOON! (:



currently listening to;
finch - letters to you

i want you to know that;
i miss you, i miss you so.

posted by stacey @ Sunday, February 13, 2005 0 Comments

a new template again.
got it from blogskins!
and edited it quite a bit.
added the shoes, from one of my
friendster pictures, and shifted
some stuff here and there.
overall, i'm happy with it! :D

so, no need to compose any
new skin for the meantime!
lala! makes things easier
for me! (:


anyways!
online doing some presentation
on powerpoint for tomorrows CME
with beanie!

and i'm so SUPER DUPER tired!
gambling last night over at my auntys
until 3 in the morning.
and only got home after fetching
my grandmother home.

totally couldnt get up
in time for 9am mass!
slept and only woke up
just in time for eleven,
cos my mother was nagging
at me. haha!

anyways!
its been such a long time
since i last went for eleven.
was sitting outside for mass,
and i kept yawning away.
oops :| tired la!

i still am SUPER DUPER TIRED!
goodness me! most probably
gonna take a nap soon, but
only after i'm done with the
powerpoint slides.

okkay maybe i should just
forget about taking a nap
cos i still have to study
before going off to aunty phyllis place
with julie! and.. i just realised
anastasia's birthday party is also TODAY!
AH! BUSY DAY i tell you!
this is MADDNESSSS! hahhah.


my song of the day;
taking back sunday - a decade under the influence

posted by stacey @ Sunday, February 13, 2005 0 Comments

my blogskin for the meantime
while i'm composing another
of my very own!

anyways!
i better start getting ready!
gotta go my aunty's place for
visiting later! most probably
gonna gamble the night away
again!


for now,
my song of the day;
unsung zeros - louder than words

posted by stacey @ Saturday, February 12, 2005 0 Comments

time and time again,
i told myself to trust you.
but why did you betray my trust? WHY!
i have never despised anyone so much.
how much lower can you actually go?

and so.. GREAT! just GREAT!
four years in the school;
and nothing went wrong for me.
no disciplinary problems.. NOTHING!
you just had to spoil it for me!

now, i have a damn fucking disciplinary
record in the schools damn file!
are you happy now?

this case is still being investigated on.
i really hope that they would get to
the bottom of this and hopefully,
prove that i'm INNOCENT! dammit! URGH.

and i hope you would STOP
lying, cos it annoys the
hell out of me! understand?
just tell the fucking truth!
and get me out of this shit;
this shit that you got me into!

just more and more problems
coming my way. WHY!?!
i'm getting more and more
frustrated! EVERYTHING
is annoying the living
daylight out of me!
i repeat; EVERYTHING!

URGH! i'm just sick and tired of everything!
DAMN THIS LIFE OF MINE!

posted by stacey @ Friday, February 11, 2005 0 Comments

ooh! by the way!
my sweet sixteenth
pictures are out!

http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2131157290

posted by stacey @ Thursday, February 10, 2005 0 Comments

now over at my auntys, gambling!
so far so goood! :D
mom's taking over for me for the
meantime while i'm here taking a
break as well as blogging.

gotta go visiting again
tomorrow morning. hopefully
i'd be able to get up on time! ha.

alright, better get going back to my game!
but before i leave, here's wishing
everybody once again..
a happy new year!

posted by stacey @ Thursday, February 10, 2005 0 Comments

chinese new year celebrations in school.
YELLOW HOUSE WON THE LION DANCEEE! (:
congrats to all who made it a success!
especially our drummer, non other than jo!
the lions; belle, sam, the cute lil girl and i.
the funny head person (hah! dunno what its called): pat!
WE DID IT! :D


after the performances,
went up to class and realised
mr tang bought a super duper big cake
for all those people whose birthdays
fall in the month of jan and feb.
but of course, i was included
together with mel, calli (both whose
birthdays are today btw!), sandra and
angie i think.

went home after that to have a good bath.
went out to meet mel, calli and shert
at seoul garden for lunch.
and my dear peiyee couldnt meet
me, so i couldnt get my black acoustic!
DAMNNN! ): spoiler! super saddening please.
i was so looking forward to buy it today!
oh wellls!

anyways!
after lunch, walked around town,
shopped abit, took neos and all
before heading off
for my grandmothers
at woodlands for
reunion dinner.


so. once again..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MEL AND CALLI!
hoped you'll enjoyed yourselves today.
and hoped you'll liked the presents too.
also, thanks for the seoul garden
treat you'll gave shert and i!
have a good new year!
mwahhh*

to the rest;
happy new year! :D



take note;
updated albums under links.
the ones with the *

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, February 08, 2005 0 Comments

just leaving some note for certain people..

if you're reading this.
look, i really think we should really talk things out.
i mean its no use avoiding each other, cos it really wont
resolve anything AT ALL! and what good would it do us?
also, how long is this gonna on for? i mean this is really
getting nowhere. we are just sitting there, listening to
everybody's views about it, or telling us what either one of
us did or said which might not be true AT ALL! maybe thats
why this started out after all. all we need, or rather all i
ask is that when we're ready, we should really talk things
out. seriously, thats the only BEST way i can think of right now.
its no point in listening to anyone else, but ourselves!

cheryltan:
i know you were damn pissed today, cos you got caught
by so many teachers. dont be pissed anymore k!
"i dont like!" LOL. i'll get you more brown and green mnm's;
your favourite! :D k? hah! dont be pissed anymore k! MWAH!*


anyways!
i shall conclude that,
lion dance is one real tiring job.
especially when your the butt!
goodness me! stayed back for
practice this afternoon to
finish up the routines and all!
tell you.. its so scourching HOT
inside! but anyways! we're all
gonna do yellow house proud la,
i tell you! (:

OH AND DID I ADD!
I'M SO SUPER DUPER EXCITED COS I'M MOST PROB
GONNA GET MY BLACK ACOUSTIC GUITAR TOMORROW!
OMG! I SO CANNOT WAIT PLEASEEEE! SUPER DUPER
HAPPYY! YAY YAY YAYY! LALALLALLAS! :D

just the sooner the better!

posted by stacey @ Monday, February 07, 2005 0 Comments

PARTNER! ihateyou.
made me cry after reading
your testimonial; and..
i still am crying! ):

i just wanna tell you that,
YOU ARE MY BESTEST PARTNER TOO!
AND I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH!


anyways!
just because you hold a position higer than me
does not make you better than me.
simply because you are older,
that does not make you superior.
just what the fuck do you want from me!
pick on me every single lesson
and make me stand at the back of the class!
then today! bring me to the principal's office!

come on la!
you are just making me HATE you more and more
as the days passes by! if expect me to respect you.
you've got to earn it..
YOU FUCKING RESPECT ME FIRST!
get it?

already, this week has been
fucking screwed for me!
you just had to add to the problems.
that was why i fucking blew up,
cried and shouted to your damn face!
i really didnt care if you were so
much older than i was or what!
seriously, i really cannot take it anymore
especially the damn pressure you are giving me,
especially by picking on me not only for one,
but EVERY SINGLE LESSON. mrs chow.

i'm sorry.
but i dont think theres anyway
i can work with you anymore.
i really want to drop out of
your damn class, and join
another class. i already
gave you a chance, but do you even
fucking deserve it, when you
dont even bother giving me one!
argh. just get lost la!


i cannot take all this stress
i'm put under, seriously.
life is such a fragile thing.
you never know what to expect.
whats it gonna throw at you next.

all i know is that
i'm not very stable now.
and i dunno how to take
it out the right way.

shakeit suggested to send
me for counselling, but
i didnt want to.

went up to look for shakeit, crying.
not that i wanted to make everyone worry for me
or anything, just that i needed someone to talk to.
saw their class photo, and watched
them do some play for bio,
couldnt help it but cry.
i miss them so fucking much.


basketball competition after school.
trashed either queens town or way la! forgot!
49 - 8


i wanna go heaven right now
cos in heaven, he will wipe
away all of my tears from
my eyes, and there shall be
no more death, nor sorrow,
nor crying, nor pain..

just exactly what i need right now.

posted by stacey @ Thursday, February 03, 2005 0 Comments

i would like to say a huge thank you
to all who have been cheering me up
and trying to put the smile back
onto my face. i appreciate your
concern, but still i'm not letting
anybody know what happen. hope
you'll can understand.

love you'll. cheryltan. jaime. mel.
calli. sarah. sheryltan. and all
who have been concerned especially
shakeit and sheila!


tried to get certain things off my
mind, which have disturbed and affected
me so much that i lose focus in
whatever i do. by doing so, i decided to
follow calli to town today. had a good relaxing
time i must say! thanks calli!

anyway!
this was what happened!
i walked past felicia chin outside hyatt.
told calli, and that mad girl ran after her
just to get her autograph on our school
diary. talked to her abit too, and man!
she is really pretty! asked us what shows
we watched and all. wrote notes in both
our diaries before signing off, and thanking
us for supporting her!

while walking out of pacific plaza, guess who
i spotted this time? taufik batisah! calli was walking
in front of him, and she didnt even notice him la!
pointing at him, i went, calli isnt that taufik?
okkay, that mad girl went up to him to ask for his
autograph on our diaries again.


ok! so all in all had a great time!
a total of two autographs on both
our diaries just in a day!
but the truth still remains.
no matter how hard i try to forget
about it, it will still come back to me!
its not like i wish it'll be gone in 3 seconds and,
1..... 2...... 3....... -poooof!-
it'll ALL be gone just like that.
HOW I WISH. oh well.
i have to face it!


my entire nightmare has started all over again.
no matter how fast i run or how far behind i leave it,
it always seems to catch up...to haunt me once more.
tearing open a wound that never fully healed.
the pain is searing through every inch of me and
i'm biting down on my lips to keep the tears from falling.

i seriously need a break.
RIGHT NOW.

posted by stacey @ Tuesday, February 01, 2005 0 Comments